it supposed to be the most beautiful part in our life, and it should be. it is youth, when there is time, energy and maybe money too. we wanted to try lots of new stuff, interesting and exciting too like, drugs and weeds, clubs and wines, sex and lust, crime and suicide. some of us are aware on how much these stuffs would effect and those are clearly not a good thing. and maybe, some of us are just to broken and blind to still, doing these stuffs. but we cant simply judge bad people are just bad, they have histories, so do we. tbvh, i have once thinking of suicide. such cliche reasons, would easily make us to think about those stuff. to think about that, arent bad stuffs sometimes are just the best medicine? well it feels good for some period i guess.
and what is about youth anyway? why old people would always talk about how precious youth is and should not go to waste? can we feel something good or important when our youth has come? and common says, youth is when our age are average about eighteen to twenty above. must youth have to be around these ages? they said, youth is all about being dearself and do anything that makes ourselves happy. youth isnt about sad or bad things, it is about being bright as possible. the most crucial part is that, it would be a lot decision making during youth time, about what are we doing, do we really need to do this, or should we try this, or many other things. after being so burdened by the curiosity of these questions, i keep on doing too many research and yes, i get really confused about everything. and so i guess i need to ask my parents about these someday. i guess they would sure be the best teacher ever lived.
some random thoughts, have you ever met someone or know someone who keep everything inside, introvert and mentally broken?
idk why but somehow, i really want to meet them. it is not about mocking those type but i really do want know what, how they think. doesnt that makes you a bit curious? different people interpret things differently and i really love to know why cause them to be different. not just those type of people, creative peoples too. why would they be so imaginative and what goes around in their mind. do you watch or read the perks of being a wallflower? at first, i read the novel and the writer really did a great job. the words, the manipulations, the climax and the ending. such a masterpiece. i was never that moved even i do read other books. sometimes, i just want to take some psychology subjects for my studies not in software engineering. it was just some random thoughts as idk what i really like right now. i like psychology, tbh. i wanted to go further about it but maybe it is not what i meant to be right?
i'm tired sometimes to keep feeding my curiosity. even it is fun to get to know stuffs but, it keeps making me further away from what i should been doing actually. you get what i mean? it makes drift away from my priority. and it is not a good thing, wasnt it?
and i really cant wait to find out what is my story about my youth right in the future, i guess i should wait for some time to actually find and keep it precious. so do you.