assalamualaikum x
its 250 in the morning and i am still here, i just dont know why i cant sleep lately.
so basically idk why but tonight i am feeling so so so and so way down. i never felt this such pain in my life like literally. well you guys might know what is the reason. idk why i do felt this miserable. i can lie to everyone telling that i am happy but.. i cant lie to myself. am i missing someone? is it really really that bad? or my emotions are just messing around? may look as happy as a lark outside but yeah you never know what did actually hapen inside. what should i do? it hurts every single time. and trust me, i have tried everything and this shit is always keep haunting me back. it sucks to cry like a baby before to bed, over thinking, stalking..... sucks man. its like stabbing yourself straight at the heart.
sometimes, i was wondering. did he ever felt the same way? or did not? but yeah, he seemed so so happy with his current life. i mean like literally happy. why shouldnt i do the same? why did ialways keep remembering everything? you didnt how it feels... i am confused now. right now. i just cant bare with this stuffs anymore....... i cant resist it anyways.
tell me how to be happy like you do and why...... why it is very easy for youto forget everything?