i am a girl, even i know i don't act like one. i can be in two condition. heartless, and way too emotional. and yeah, i fall too easily and too hard. way too hard. and that was just the part where i hate the most. i know, it is normal for a typical teenage girl like me. i bet, every teenage girl were having the same shit. but, i am the happiest girl alive now.
currently, i am having someone in my mind. who?
heh, only me who knew this. yeah. i think it is the best way to just shut up my mouth. well, he was a nice guy.. and he's cute. omg, i can't stop smiling just to think about him. his identification should be private. and i mean it. but trust me, we're both clear about our relationship. yep, just friends.. with benefits. lol no. but yeah, he keep looking for me. he keep skyping with me. tell me how i can't have feelings towards him? as you guys know, and i've already mention it so many times in my other posts, i am the girl who easily get attracted to someone who really kind and just can simply makes me happy. especially, the kind and sweet and cute and...... omg, i think i am really in love. damn this. oh. kill. me. now. he keep giving me more memories, more stuffs to be remembered. yeah, i am not lying. and guess what, he's schooling in the same school of mine. lol what? yeah. serious. oh god.. you know he was the sweetest thing ever. EVAH. okay what was i thinking. nah, nothing's gonna happen afterall. but what if i am really with him? hmm, well. no way. just, no way.
okay, this maybe would explain what i feel now. yeah, i think so. tell me how if he was the one i think about when i woke up and he was the last i think before i get to bed? yeap, and everything started with a simple "hi". for sure, i didn't expect myself to be this mad in love. but what if, my heart gets broken? for loving him? well. it is clear that i like him. a lot. and.. did he feel the same too? one word problem in a teenage girls' mind. i don't wanna be sad and miserable again. no. but yaaaaa.. about that, how would i know? what if he doesn't like me. what if doesn't really like me at all? well. let it be. in case to move on, we need to face everything right? so, yeah. i think i'm just gonna stick to this one. only one. and just follow where my life brought me to. i really do sound like an immature small kid who blinded by love but who cares? i really am in love with him.
and god, please. can he be the last for me?