okay here's where it all started. he liked me. i'm just way too cool to know that. because i know, this like thingy won't go any further. of course he need to make a move. just like a normal and childish way, a simple hey just do the trick. and boom.. things get more serious. i can't lie, i do have feelings towards him after all those late night conversation, memories and stuffs. but..
so do other girls! he's a sweet talker.. i think so? yeah, a player to me. trust me, i've been through a lots of different characters of boys. and yeah, i just don't know this type.. idk if i can handle this or not. apparently not for now. how can i even get jealous with someone who doesn't even mine? he's a flirt tbh. and i hate to know that. like i said, i've changed. but yeah, i know i'm changing to be the old me.. and for sure, i don't want that. i don't want to be that easy attracted to people and ended up, hurting myself. i don't want to be that kind of girl. i want to be that girl, who doesn't fall to hard and easily. yeah, just nice..
but tell me how now, if i can't even resist him. and the worst part is, somewhere, somehow, in my heart, telling me that he wasn't that serious to get me. and now, i don't know what to do. to love him? or not? to treat him as a friend tho? i can't. it is just too pain just to watch him with the others.. make him my special one? but he wouldn't do the same. i can't even made up my mind. did i want him? did i really like him? or not? and i've swore before, i'm totally tired of boys. and had enough of them. but now, see. just see. i still, can't. and fuck, i am facing the same problems. just with the different man.
what's wrong with my heart? why i can't even try to control my own feelings? my own heart? did i haven't get enough of this? he's just a complete stranger who i don't even know where he came from! and now, i just can't made up my mind. i can't.. i don't know what to do. ergh. but one thing is for sure.
he really do, succeed on stealing my heart. //clap hands//