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hey how do you do?

im still in the same phase of my life. still depending on my sad songs to get through the day. how was your life currently? does anything get better? well congrats if things may be better than before. its been years since the last update. so many things happen and actually worsens me inside. did i tell you guys abt my mother is currently sick? yes, diabetics. its been a year now since the last operation of getting rid of the area affected by the bacteria on her leg. a year before was even worse. everyday went to the ozone therapy to threat the leg, home cook meals as diabetics cant just eat anything, home chores, episodes of her mood swings, her depression too, giving up, not wanting to eat at all, and so many other things you cant possibly imagine. ive been taking care of her for more than a year now and things not really easy. i know i have to be strong for her to be strong too. and im actually come to the point where i am really tired and going to give up. i hated the routine, i hated the burden, i hated the responsibility, i hate that im in charge, i hate that people depending on me. im not strong enough. im worn out too.