People come, people go.
I'd faced the worse. And I really don't want to go back to my old life. It is painful but, life really needs to keep on going.
I felt so useless, so... so.... stupid.
Like a normal love story. Dark times..
Everyday and night, just the same. People don't understand what it feels like. Yes, people said that time can heal a broken heart. But, my question is, when? When will this feeling stop?
You think it is easy to let go of something?
And I'm so sick of love, so sick. After another, comes another and another one.
But every single of them are literally the same. Tell me, what's the point actually?
And thats why, now... I hate "men". I literally had no feelings for them right now. Yes, experience did makes me more matured and learn to be careful guys with such quite eyes.
I know, not all men are the same. I know that. I know they were still many more the good ones out there. But, I feel so sick, so tired to be played with, to be done the same thing and over again. And to be honest, I am really hurting inside.
So, I really did say yes to be changed to a new school, which is my school right now. And lucky, I had the chance to make my dreams came true. I did let go all my feelings and focus in my studies.
The good part is, I get to the chance to get closer to Allah. And Alhamdulillah. Until now my life was not as complicated like it used to.
But, yes. Sometimes all those feeling came and haunt me back. All I need to do is, to stay strong even I know, I won't be able to. What ever it is, I'm done with this stupid stuffs. I am really done. Sincerely, me.